Saturday, July 24, 2010
, 9:53 AM
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I Didnt went out , rot at home . -.-! gaaaahhhhh!
For some reason, I don't think I like myself now.
Contradicting because I am in a better position than I am last year but you know when you changed so much that you've become the person you used to loathe?
Yes, my self esteem and confidence has evidently improved but I am not a good person.
I have lost control of myself more than I can remember & I'm giving myself a bad name for behaving this way.
I'm sorry if the attention gets the better out of me, sometimes I don't know how to hold back my feelings and you know how teenage raging hormones can be.
I say things I don't mean it and I regret them, seriously.
People will always have the impression of you by how you make them feel.
It will stay attach to their mind forever, or until you do something really nice to them.
I have hurt nice people and I apologise profusely for that.
I think compliments are making me feel ignorant towards other people's feelings and I swear I will learn my lesson this time.
For that, I am now serving my karma. Yes I do fucking believe in karma.
& this hurts like hell, I just don't want to wear it on my sleeve because I deserve to suffer in silence.
I'm unhappy that became the person I don't really like.
You know how you say the things you don't wanna do yet you still do it subconsciously?
People change and you don't realised it until it's really starting to hurt, either you or the other party.
I want to stop being judgemental and start to feel compassion towards others.
Not everyone deserve a bitchy lesson from me but seriously, I think people need it.
For some reason, I don't think I like myself now.
Contradicting because I am in a better position than I am last year but you know when you changed so much that you've become the person you used to loathe?
Yes, my self esteem and confidence has evidently improved but I am not a good person.
I have lost control of myself more than I can remember & I'm giving myself a bad name for behaving this way.
I'm sorry if the attention gets the better out of me, sometimes I don't know how to hold back my feelings and you know how teenage raging hormones can be.
I say things I don't mean it and I regret them, seriously.
People will always have the impression of you by how you make them feel.
It will stay attach to their mind forever, or until you do something really nice to them.
I have hurt nice people and I apologise profusely for that.
I think compliments are making me feel ignorant towards other people's feelings and I swear I will learn my lesson this time.
For that, I am now serving my karma. Yes I do fucking believe in karma.
& this hurts like hell, I just don't want to wear it on my sleeve because I deserve to suffer in silence.
I'm unhappy that became the person I don't really like.
You know how you say the things you don't wanna do yet you still do it subconsciously?
People change and you don't realised it until it's really starting to hurt, either you or the other party.
I want to stop being judgemental and start to feel compassion towards others.
Not everyone deserve a bitchy lesson from me but seriously, I think people need it.